Past year I’ve went through a hard experience in social media nets by trying to reach unreachable woman and being into the fantasy about conquer models. It was a difficult path to understand my self as a man but too expressing with poetry very deep feelings, emotions and attitudes toward love, sex, women and mutual care. The result is here as a book by trying to heal one of my worse trauma in life, the pornographic experience and conception about women, sex and unreal love. So I decided to reunite my poems, made them a book and give to the public what really changed me, my voice, my poetry, my good lightly intention of get away what can’t be understand as love: the conflict between fantasy and reality, between comercial beauty and reachable beauty, between sexual neurotic bodies and common people physic, between monetized relationships and really caring relationships. So here I let the result as a testimony about that what can sick us, mad us and destroy us could too heal us, enlightened us and throw us to the real love path.